13.03.2010

As you all know i had a rough time being in relationship for the past five years eventually it went to an end....how it end,i wasn't sure myself....i do not want to point finger at anyone...everyone has their faults,everybody make mistakes and its not wrong to make the next step after what we have been through...

After all the hard times,i finally meet someone...LOL...
typical issue...so yeah...hahahaha...SOMEONE SPECIAL....

sometime when i think back,how in the world i could end up with him....?? we quarrel all the time...most of the time,he would pick a fight with me even if i just keep quiet in class....at times i would just scream back at him for disturbing me yet he still continue....= =

in lower six,i was a loner....sit alone behind the class.....quiet....SHY...yes...i'm actually SHY....haha...

so funny......Fame offers me "samboi" and my face expression is like...O.o NO!
lol...I LOOK AT HIM AS IF HE WANTS TO EAT ME.... XD then slowly i just got use to the surrounding and it turns out to be okey...^^

Well in lower six,cant really see our relationship grow.....its just funny... i use to hate him so much that i would just hit him all the time...well his not the only one i hit once people irritates me....^^



In 2009,it became obvious somehow....all i remember is Rush and i just became so close to each other...at first i didnt have any feelings on him and so is he... His just a nice guy who helps people and comfort them in a way... he would only listen without intrupting them or giving advice... he has his own way...no one understand who and what rush is really about...no one knows....

Like what i said earlier on...i had my hard times and since i was in school,i feel lonely and somehow people call me desperate and "PLAYGIRL"...hush words** T.T that is what happen when your so heart broken,especially in relationship....Man...i got into so much trouble....

Rush and i just started to text as friends and slowly when i get to know him,i just feel as if i want to know more about him...then slowly we text each othe with sweet names but was not in relationship....i know aaron this people look through his phone....CURIOUS i must say but they didnt say anything until Rush keep on approaching me and suddenly talk to me nicely and call me by my name... usually he would only call me "Oii" haha... so everyone began to suspect something from me and Rush but we keep on denied..

it went on till we finally holding hands under the table..(WAS CAUGHT BY DAVID,FAME AND I DONT REMEMBER WHO..) and slowly the news spread and yet rush and me still denied it...so kecian all my friends...XD


Then when Rush starts to get involve in Hockey then he ask me to watch him play during his match,somehow in my heart i really want to go and i made it out of school and watch his match... "my reason to the school,im the photografer for the Square and School mag" jahat kan...^^ but i did my job also what...XD i still contribute my part for the school...hehe..

NASI GORENG ACCIDENT.....EVERYBODY kNOWS IT NOW....XDD

During sports day,Rush brought me breakfast,he didnt want me to get hungry before my event.....then jealousy~ look at his face in this video...XD






Then slowly i get busy with my prefectorial board stuff and he was always there..with the reason "AZRA was a prefect" so he just got to stay... he took good care of me...my food..drinks and all my needs..im happy to be with him...=)

This year....we barely message or talk at the phone and we barely meet...once a month...imagine that....i struggle so much within this time,i think alot and i always wonder what he would be doing and seriously i had so much doubt that i cried and everybody seems to look at Rush as the bad guy...i admit..i did too...=( i was so depress and i got to have someone to talk to..well you know who you are...Thank you for pulling me through...=) No news from him for month and i almost give up on him...even to myself..

There's some case where i just could not believe him after what has happen and i went to see him for the truth and....

He just held me around his arm and i feel bad yet i was still angry about it... after listen to his explanation and everything,i feel so much better,at least we wont end up to a fight pointing finger at each other... he gave me something that i would never expected from him.. i was speechless....seriously i was....he barely spent time on me and there it goes...a handbag...i almost cried because i never thought that he would do such things and everything that he has done for me was his FIRST TIME and i feel glad to be be His first one.....

i notice one thing about Rush....but only i know.....and no one knows what Rush is up to and his attitude....well this one year is worth it....

now my relationship reaches one year....im glad to be where i am now and i feel comfortable with him...eventhough we didn't have much communication going but we still stick together... i do hope that it would last but..if things didnt go as plan... lets just see how it goes....i will be living life my own way,just follow the flow...no matter what happen in the end,just smile n never regret... i will always remember all the time i had with him... =)